NoahandEmilysMama

So life has got a little crazy.. It’s been crazy, hectic and just downright insane! But I’m back with 2 new posts! A life update and a big update regarding Noah! So what’s been happening.. I took some time of social media middle of last year. Things got crazy and I felt uncomfortable sharing so much and I panicked and shut down. Which was the worst thing to do! My friends are what I needed and I just left, I learnt pretty quickly that I needed them and came back!  Other news: I’ve got quite poorly since being away. Not just my physical being but my mental health too! My mental health I’m not getting into on here as that’s just too personal but I’m floating on. I’m not yet at the stage to go back on my tablets (2 years in August since I took my last pill) but things have been a struggle including mine and my family’s safety.  Onto my physical side, I’m awaiting an operation for a condition called Endometriosis, the hospital believe I’ve had this most of my life and...

Behind every tear is a smile and behind every scream there's a laugh. Being to a parent with an ill child comes with its challenges. I cannot even begin to tell you how many tears we as a family have shed. How much hair I have pulled out in frustration and the amount of times I've wanted to jump in my car and never come back.  But you know what stops me.. The smile Noah gives me. Reminding me to keep on going, pick my head up and keep smiling.  I know I cannot change this situation but I hope and pray every single day that this day will be easier than the last. But if anything It gets harder. A day not knowing any answers, a day cuddling Noah while he's screaming in pain and not knowing what the hell to do and its another day where I sobbing to my parents trying to figure out the next move.  It has been 857 days since Noah was born and it has been 857 days, questioning what is wrong with our little guy. 857 days I've worried, I've cried, I've lash...

You may have noticed most of my social media I've been quiet, I've stopped posting . I just left!  Usually with this blog I have no motivation to post but I still keep up my social media. This time I just have no words to write, no pictures to share.  At the moment I'm just a shell of a person gliding through life. I still get up and be a mum. I still do what is required of me. But I'm just a walking, talking robot.  Nobody knows why, I don't talk about. I don't want to think about it but it's happening. Something happened in my past that's coming back to haunt me and to be honest I am so scared to be here right now. I scared to leave my house on my own and I'm scared of just thinking. I don't feel safe and I don't feel secure. I don't feel me.. On the outside I'm ok, I paint this picture for my friends and family. I paint such a wonderful picture that I'm doing well and I'm super mum and an amazing best f...

Pregnancy loss happens to 1 in every 4 people, this is a shockingly large number for such a taboo subject. We will end the stigma around pregnancy loss. I have my own personal experience with this. I have lost two babies both before the 12 week mark and it does not get any easier. Although myself and plenty of other women are open about it some are still fearing that it is not an easy subject to discuss. At the time of need a woman shouldn't hide away but should get support from a fellow mother and friend.  Our guest today comes from an Instagram page who lives everyday helping women who have been in this position. She works hard to break the stigma, whilst letting the memory of her son Harley live on.  Harleyinmyheart  also known as Miranda shares her personal experience. 'I was 17 when I got pregnant. I had all the symptoms and I decided to take a test on November 6, 2013. I went to take the test at school between classes. My school had this policy that...

So with the new revamp, I will be talking to people with real life experiences and opinions. This post today is from my wonderful partner and father to our beautiful children. So a bit about him. Chris is 23 and is one of the most fun loving person you will ever meet but is also a protector to all of us. He enjoys playing around with Noah and giving Emily plenty of cuddles and kisses. But does come with a playful side and I often think I have 3 children instead of 2! Let's start the Q and A. So you have recently become a father to our newest edition Emily, what was the change like for you and was it hard adapting to a new way of life? At first the change going from one baby to two was hard and learning how to adapt to looking after two with two completely different routines. It was also weird getting used to having a newborn around again. The weirdest part was holding something that was so small compared to Noah and forgetting how to even look after a newborn again. It...

2 Years! Wow have they flown by?! Noah turned 2 on the 14th June. I still cannot fathom it! It felt like 2 minutes ago we were celebrating his birth and now I have a walking talking human that I have created and kept alive for 2 Years! I struggle to keep fish alive this long, but this parenting thing.. I've got down! So what's new? He is still very ill, and we still don't have any ideas! He was put on a dairy free diet a few days after Xmas, we tried this for 6 months with no change. He is still dependent on medication and as he gets older the worse he is getting! He now takes so much medication he could rival an old man!  We discovered he had eczema at 6 months old and that too is getting worse with age. It started with a small patch on his back and now it has spread to his neck, his armpits, the creases in his arms by his elbows, the backs of his legs and all over his thighs and calf's. With a small patch on his belly. This has been just as bad to mai...

My Light, My angel, My beautiful daughter.. Emily this week is now 3 Months old and is she is growing so quick. Learning things before I thought was possible and she has the most beautiful smile, that will make a whole room smile back. So what's been happening? She is rolling over, Although my health visitor told me it was impossible before 4 months, she first did it at 8 weeks which was probably a coincidence but has been actively rolling over since 10 weeks old. She currently does belly to back but when she is on her back she will go onto her side as if she was to roll. So rolling both ways is in the near future. I don't have a current up to date weight until this coming Tuesday, as she gets her 3 Months Jabs. But she was last weight at 10 weeks at 10lbs 2oz. So that's a 4lbs weight gain in 10 weeks! Emily is on the 9th Percentile where she has stayed since birth so that's great! She is in size 1 nappies and in Newborn clothes and has 4oz every 4 ho...